something's gotta give
i am having such a hard time finding balance with all that i want to do and need to do and have to do. somewhere, something's gotta give.
i just spent the last week with my best friend and her family, pretty much completely disconnected from my phone and a computer, and it was blissful. i find myself very skeptical about stepping back in front of it.
i'm not going to admit to being a bad blogger lately. true, they have been sporadic and pretty shallow posts, but it took all i had in me to even get those published. but that doesn't make me a bad blogger.
i've also found that when every post i write comes from me wanting to apologize for not blogging, perhaps i'm not doing something right. i've mentioned lately that i really feel a pull to do some things in my life that will be drastically different and will keep me from blogging.
these new things, and focusing on other parts of my life that need improvement, will bring me much more joy than blogging will right now. my focus is completely fractured at the moment and my blog has fallen to the back burner.
and that is okay.
life is about much more than creating content for a blog. it is about living it. so for now i'm just stepping back. i may or may not sit in front of a computer and blog ever again. i may come running back screaming, pouring out my sincerest apologies for leaving you guys without my wit and candor. ;)
but i have to get some things straight before i go on. i've over committed myself in many different places and i've got to simplify.
i have some dreams i need to get to work on and in order to actually do them, i have to make room for them. and if making room for them means cutting back in other places then i have to. i don't want to. but i have to.
pray for me to be faithful to myself and to rely on God to put me on the path He has for me. i have some lofty dreams and without Him i can't do it. but because i have God on my side, I know I can. :)