those two dreaded words
my to do list is approximately three miles long. i have signs to make for friends. i have emails that have gone unanswered for days. (if one of them is from you i do apologize). i haven't even thought about march sponsors much - and in case you missed it. it is march.
all of that to say - i have hit some sort of a wall. i am no longer motivated, inspired, enthused, encouraged or even slightly interested in blogging, designing, or interacting with anyone at all.
suffice it to say i am slightly burned out. (oh those two dreaded words...) i have over extended myself, i am way over committed, and i am more than overwhelmed. i don't know what to do first or where to start. and i haven't had a day off for me to really enjoy in a couple of months.
all of this adds up to a sad skye. and i'm also frustrated with myself. for letting me get to this spot. for saying yes too much. for wanting to please too many people. for allowing myself to get bured out.
it also doesn't help much that i have ruffled a few feathers on the blog here lately. want to guarantee blog comments? post about something controversial that will surely piss some people off! (examples here and here).
these posts left me feeling bad for saying what i thought. expressing how i felt about some things honestly made me feel like i had done something wrong.
that isn't right is it? this is my space and i'm allowed to say what i think and tell you how i feel without feeling like i have to defend myself for it right? defending yourself, especially when you don't think you should have to, is totally exhausting.
i have had some great conversations with myself, with my husband, with friends and with fellow bloggers. it is time for me to take a step back and figure out where my priorities really are. i have to find a way to balance all the things i love to do without feeling pressured to do something, guilty for not doing something and exhausted because i've done too much.
it just really sucks because the easiest place to start cutting back on is blogging. i simply cannot commit to blogging x number of times per week right now. not when i know my time is better spent elsewhere.
i can't quit altogether. not blogging at all is almost as bad as trying to blog too much. i have to get the crazy out somewhere. ;)
but i am accepting any and all manner of guest posts to share for a while. got a tutorial you want to teach? a recipe to share? a tid bit of inspiration? please email me and let me know. i'd love to have you and feature your post on my blog.
so please bear with me as i reorganize my life and get some things straightened out. everyone needs a refreshing break every now and again. :)